reflectedeve: Pearl from Steven Universe, in a tux and top hat (slash - fanart - self-indulgence)
Oh um, hi internet! /o\ I am kind of swamped these days. I've taken on a number of original comics projects for the summer (not to mention my grad school application). So it looks like I'm just going to have even less time for fandom stuff than usual. (Although, I say this five days before Leverage comes back, so IDK. Grain of salt.)

That said, the fabulous [livejournal.com profile] bandombigbang story I drew for has gone live! Only Going One Way, by [personal profile] ataratah and [personal profile] jjtaylor, is a BANDOM/DUE SOUTH CROSSOVER. Yeah. :DDD It is fucking hilarious and cracked-out and amazing, and you should totally go check it out! Not only is the main pairing adorable, but these two have a real gift for writing great secondary characters as well - in both fandoms. (Buck Frobisher, omg. :DDD)

You can see my four illustrations on LJ or on DW. How could I possibly pass up the chance to draw Gerard Way in a Mountie uniform? I had so much fun with this, seriously. It was particularly appropriate, since I started working on it during the drive to/from Canada for my brother's graduation.

Of course, now I've done fanart of Fraser and Kowalski, but not Vecchio ... which means that at some point, I'll have to make time to rectify that. ;)

On a less gleeful note, you've probably all heard about the most recent, sickening bit of fandom racefail by now? But here's a rather belated signal boost, just in case, because I think it's important to be aware of shit like this. (Link goes to the most comprehensive round-up post of the debacle, by [livejournal.com profile] amazonziti.) In a nutshell: a SPN fan decided that the tragic (and ongoing) aftermath of the Haiti earthquake would make a great backdrop for her two white dudes to ~find themselves and have hot sex, piling on plenty of painful racist and imperialistic tropes along the way. Her betas, artist, cheerleaders, and quite a few commenters apparently agreed. Eurgh.

I'm sorry for both being so late and so brief on the matter ... I may try and get a post together later about some different instances of pop culture/fannish fail I've been encountering lately (much of it about race). I hope.
reflectedeve: Pearl from Steven Universe, in a tux and top hat (back in the day - ancient history)
Some seriously shitty things have been happening IRL lately (not really to me, but to people I love); thank goodness for the distractions of the internet. There seems to have been a minor flare-up of two bandom-centric wanks (the warnings business and bandflesh). Funtimes! :| I don't really have anything to add, except a great big WORD to [personal profile] wistfuljane's post. ([personal profile] impertinence also has a worthwhile post on Anonymity and Livejournal.)

On the other hand, this has spawned a nifty post from [livejournal.com profile] iamtheenemy about fandom experience. A lot of people have been weighing in about their fannish history in the comments, which I find fascinating. *_* Mine's kind of pointlessly overcomplicated, but thinking about it reminded me of a conversation I was having with [livejournal.com profile] hermionesviolin awhile back, which was sort of hilarious.

I'd been musing over my ten-year fandom anniversary (I got into my first fandoms, Sailormoon and Labyrinth, during 9th grade; the 1998-99 school year), when something odd occurred to me. I also began the process of coming out (to myself, as well as to others) during that time, and it was also around then that I started drawing 'seriously.'

LOL NOSTALGIA )

Also tangential to the whole personal fan history thing: Star Trek is reminding me why I have always gotten into fandoms late, when there are already tons of recs and goodfic epics just waiting for me. My life, so hard.

If I can't find enough Kirk/Spock to satisfy the craving right now (I have an unusually strong case of OTP fever, ack), at least there is all kinds of Ray/Ray fic I can go back and read. It's a long story, but I just finally watched "Call Of The Wild" for the first time on Tuesday. (I laughed, I cried; I made noises only dogs could hear; I lol no'd bowling alleys. I am currently rereading [livejournal.com profile] brooklinegirl's Long Road (Long Ride Home) and it's even better now. ♥)

Oh, and lol latest, but: I'm really sorry about your band's split, Panic fans. :( I know I'd be devastated if it were MCR. I really hope that you keep enjoying your fic, bbs, and maybe even wind up with two great bands to love. ♥
reflectedeve: Pearl from Steven Universe, in a tux and top hat (jersey boys - totes scary - au)
My epic meta-writing is pretty well over, for now (I haven't tried to do that in ages - it was more frustrating than I expected, and wow am I out of practice). But there are a few really good links I want to share with you this morning afternoon (whoops, where did the time go?).

[livejournal.com profile] blackboggart has a really fantastic post on artistic integrity and artistic responsibility. This is something I have been having a lot of trouble articulating, not just during this wank, but all year, and it goes above and beyond warnings wank or fandom context. Clear and pretty concise. You should read it.

[livejournal.com profile] impertinence has another good (brief) post about the use of "privilege," and the way in which this wank has illustrated the cult of silence surrounding sexual violence victims. There's some smart stuff in the comments, too, particularly from [livejournal.com profile] quiet000001.

[livejournal.com profile] giddygeek has a very reasonable post supporting the use of warning for triggery material. (I can't feel sorry for my anger and occasional severity, in previous posts; however, I appreciate and respect this calm rationality and I suspect others would as well.) She also calls out some truly disgusting behavior. While the individual who perpetrated it probably doesn't deserve fandom's attention, the act itself does, because it throws into sharp relief the very real social problems tied to this wank and some of the attitudes displayed during the course of it.

In other news, I am super excited about MCR doing vocal tracking! (GERARD SINGING. *_* I just want more of that in my life.) But I'm absolutely horrified by the news about Bob's dog. DDDDDD: I hope that fucking trainer gets what's coming to him.

Lastly, a brief Star Trek (reboot) rec: Reading Against/Reading With: Mastering the Oppositional Discourse in Textual Healing, by [livejournal.com profile] emeraldwoman. (I'm not supposed to be reading Trek yet, but it was short, okay.) So the Star Trek kink meme had this completely awesome prompt: Short essay section (50 points) Please apply the techniques of at least one school or theory of literary analysis to any of the following pairings [...] DUDE. So very much what I needed, last night. (Thank you so much, [livejournal.com profile] go_gentle. ♥)
reflectedeve: Pearl from Steven Universe, in a tux and top hat (the hair will eat you - fanboy - rock su)
I'm sincerely sorry, flist, for continuing to rant at you, but I guess I have a few more things to say about the warnings mess. I'll probably be stopping after this, though.

I just don't understand where some people are coming from. )

Whew, okay, that was much longer than I expected. Briefly, I discussed: "your triggers are not my problem"/community sensibilities, the anger of pro-warning fans, survivors and pro-warning advocates "attacking" ficcers, censorship, and demands for consensus on a list of triggers to warn for. With lots of attempts to explain what I think the pro-warnings camp is attempting to say and to accomplish. (My understanding of the situation ultimately represents nobody's opinions but my own. Obviously.)

I think I'm done now--shit, I have so much to do that is NOT THIS--but here are a few more links. While I think that the analogies being thrown around are inherently problematic (fandom is neither a bookstore nor a supermarket), [livejournal.com profile] vassilissa's take on the food allergy analogy is at least better, IMO: "You'll have to find that out for yourself. You can always leave if you smell peanuts. It's your responsibility, not mine." [livejournal.com profile] kalpurna has a handy list of ways to make your warnings optional by hiding them. And lastly, the [journalfen.net profile] unfunnybusiness write-up has lots more links, including to a lot of the posts where the wank started and was primarily continued.

[ETA:] [livejournal.com profile] quettaser does the math. *_*

[ETA 2:] As usual, have not been able to pull myself away from haphazardly reading more posts on this subject. /o\ The more I do (and the calmer I am; I fully admit that my previous post in particular was written in a haze of rage), the more things seem to boil down to one simple issue. People don't like to be told what to do. Duh, I know. (And: a simplification, I know. But significant.) I don't have a lot of respect for that reaction (in this case), but I get it. However, this is not about people telling other people what to do: it's about people asking for help. I wish some people out there would read [livejournal.com profile] impertinence's post about triggers (again, if need be), and try to re-focus their perspective a little. In context, that contrary reaction is fucking selfish.
reflectedeve: Pearl from Steven Universe, in a tux and top hat (annoyed - confused - use your words)
I've been home and on the internet for about half an hour as of starting this post, and I already feel as though my head is going to explode from rage. The warnings wank seems to have expanded its borders to include more general areas of fandom, and the ugliness is greatly increased for me by virtue of the fact that it's now coming from people I've always had the greatest respect for.

Sadly, I am not one of the more eloquent, articulate people addressing this subject, and I'm not feeling particularly diplomatic either. I just really need to vent.

I am honestly fucking shocked that we're not better than this. )

Above all, I'd appreciate it if people would stop acting as though survivors are attempting to oppress them into submission, here. They don't have that kind of power over you. They aren't censoring you. They are asking you to be decent to them, and it just makes you look like a shitty excuse for a human being when you get so fucking defensive about it.

I may update this post with links to people who are making what I consider to be good points on the subject. I should probably make dinner first.

[ETA:] Okay, I'm kind of failing at hunting up all the fantastic posts I've seen, but in brief: one of the first posts I saw on the subject was [livejournal.com profile] iamtheenemy's, here (it's excellent, if a few days out of date by now). [livejournal.com profile] ficbyzee says I would never want any story that I write to cause someone to relive a traumatic experience. (It's a brief post, but it's exactly the attitude I hope ficcers will have.) [personal profile] wistfuljane has a roundup here and a follow-up here. And most importantly (to reiterate a link from yesterday), there is [livejournal.com profile] impertinence's important post about triggers (what they are, how they work, why they are not like squicks): Warning: Very explicit discussion of sexual assault and the nature, anatomy, cause & effect of triggers. Is itself triggery.

There has been so much more, and so many people are making fantastic arguments in the comments of other posts that I don't want to go back to right now. I need to start winding my emotions down for bed; ugh, I got nothing I wanted to do done this evening.

[ETA 2:] [livejournal.com profile] sinsense just linked to a great post by [livejournal.com profile] untappedbeauty that calls out the use of fallacious analogies and says something I keep forgetting to say, though I was getting more and more irritated about it earlier: I wish they could just pretend it's not about them. Because it's not. [...] It's about extending a courtesy to our fannish community, not trying to stifle authors.
reflectedeve: Pearl from Steven Universe, in a tux and top hat (back to the stage)
Just got back from spending my weekend with the family. Oh hey, the first BBB I drew for--Through The Longest Hours, by [livejournal.com profile] thelemic--has been posted. \o/ You can find my art here. It's based on old pre-Code horror comics covers (though it's not remotely gruesome). I was reading The Ten-Cent Plague at the time. ;) Anyway, it was a super fun fic to draw for, and the piece is pretty different from my usual.

I am still really behind on BBB, and pretty much everything else. All I've managed to pay attention to online in the last day or so has been the bandom warnings wank. With regard to that: warnings are a courtesy people in fandom perform for each other, and while YMMV on the exact extent of their use, they are on the whole a positive and useful convention for our community. As far as I'm concerned, refusing to warn for potentially triggery material in fanfiction is a seriously shitty thing to do, and lecturing survivors on being 'stronger' is more or less unspeakable. Some of what I've seen this weekend has just been horrifying; my flist (which itself is not horrifying ♥) has been full of posts that have been long and eloquent on the subject. [livejournal.com profile] impertinence has a particularly important--and disturbing, graphic, and personal--post that deals with triggering in an in-depth way. Warning: Very explicit discussion of sexual assault and the nature, anatomy, cause & effect of triggers. Is itself triggery.

I think a lot about artistic responsibility, though I don't have postably eloquent thoughts on it (as a general topic), right now. Fandom, however, is not a space for putting artistic integrity (such as it is) before other peoples' pain. Ugh.

Anyway . . . stuff. TOS has proved to be the best of all pick-me-ups lately, so I think I'll curl up with some more of Season 2 and my [livejournal.com profile] thelittlebang piece (which is going great). I should post something reaction-y at some point, though at this point it might mostly be "OMG SPOCK ♥___________♥ WTF I AM MY MOTHER." We were having a lot of fun rehashing random plots in the car today, to the amusement of my father and brother.
reflectedeve: Pearl from Steven Universe, in a tux and top hat (Default)
I'm having a difficult time with my [livejournal.com profile] yuletart assignment; I'm really pleased with the fandom, etc, but having brainstorming issues. I think I might make a locked post later asking for prompting . . . in fact, I might go back to using a filter for talking about the details of my various holiday exchange projects. Is there anyone who would want to be left off that? I don't know if anyone is actually invested in being surprised/unspoiled about their flisters' exchange contributions (personally, I'm sort of fond of sneak peeks), but just in case.

Speaking of my flist, there's nothing like internet drama to take your mind off the real thing. Ugh, I'm so sorry, guys. No matter how bitchy bandflesh could be sometimes, I'm deeply unimpressed that someone put in that much effort to prove that s/he could do (much) worse.

The first comic I drew in almost a year was inspired by bandflesh.

reflectedeve: Pearl from Steven Universe, in a tux and top hat (hard at work - drawing - garry)
This did not wind up being the weekend of productivity I was hoping for (at one point, I was badly derailed by a sudden icon-making frenzy). The comic strip I'm working on is about half done; if you'd like, there's a terrible blurry photo of two panels that you can see. )

I also at least thumbnailed some of the other stuff I want to draw, much of which will probably go faster than this. (Trying to draw Gerard's face twelve times in a row, fairly consistently, is seriously nerve-wracking. Even when I give up on fiddling endlessly with it, trying to improve the likeness. I'm grateful to people who take a billion photos of him at one event, really, because it gives me an entire model sheet to work with.)

I considered making a long, meta post about the balance between valuing female characters and over-idealizing their personalities away; and also, how particularly fascinating this issue could be in an RPF fandom. But, I wound up not having the stamina . . . and anyway, I had nothing specific to say about the wank itself. Apropos of very little, I think people should write more femslash. I always think people should write more femslash.

Amanda Palmer's solo album has not left my player in days. ♥ I'm excited to buy it for real. Also, I've resisted a lot of frivolous fandom-related merch, but I am definitely getting one of these. (The umbrella. Though if they sold Gerards at my local comic shop, well . . . Sadly, I don't much like the action figure.)
reflectedeve: Pearl from Steven Universe, in a tux and top hat (annoyed - confused - use your words)
There is wank in my fandom today. People I like and respect (but mostly do not know, because I am new and quiet) are all over the fence (both sides, sitting-on, perilously attempting to balance as they walk along the top of).

My response is apparently to go around randomly friending more bandom people. (People who I think are on various sides of the fence; that is not my criteria. I have no particular criteria.) Oh hi, I think you're all cool and stuff but I'm shy and faily and don't post much so I'm just going to sit here and watch you like a lurker freak.

So really, it's a day like any other day.

(For the record? Anon memes used to make me really uncomfortable, but I changed my mind somewhere along the line. I've always been pretty cool with Fandom Wank, for all that it sometimes gets out of hand--or just lame--so I guess that means that I'm not always about fandom being warm fuzzies . . . just most of the time. 80% warm fuzzies, 20% intelligent snark! That would be my ideal.

Anyway, it seems to me that people on both sides are getting upset and defensive because they feel that their happy space is being attacked. For some of them, a fannish happy space is a space without anon memes; for others, anon memes are their fannish happy spaces. You know what? Follow your joy, bbs. I'm sad that people have to stop being friends over this, but otherwise, I don't think it matters. Fandom is what it is for each of us, and I'm generally okay with that.)

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