I wanna hear you sing the praise

Oh god, self. Please stop daydreaming about making it in the comic industry and someday getting to talk to/collaborate with (??!) Gerard Way. There are many reasons to want to make comics, that should not be one of them.

(I am sad that I currently don't have space for a GWay icon, but Pete gets to be on this post because crowd-surfing at the White House correspondents' dinner. Oh god.)

Yeah, um, so I kind of thought I was past the ability to obsess this much about a fandom, but apparently? Not so much. A few weeks ago, I was afraid that I'd get knee-deep and realize that it was all a mistake, because I was just not quite done with being stupid.

I feel really badly about all the stuff I've been ignoring/abandoning because of all this. (I will be pretty surprised if I actually do anything for paintedspires at this point, and I'm really sorry about that!) The thing is . . . I think I really need this fandom right now. I moved in January, and since then life was full of greyness and city and blah, trying to adjust to not seeing my family, trying to deal with the fact that my job is lame and that I felt boring and sucked-dry and completely without any kind of creative inspiration whatsoever.

This fandom is fun and exciting; it's full of very (often non-conventionally) attractive men and women and music to fall in love with, really excellent fic, and even some really great social aspects (I mean, when concert-going is a major fannish event--more central/important in some ways than con-going is with other fandoms--that's different). Flist, I feel so good now. I am drawing again, I am happy, I even feel more sexual than I have in longer than I really care to remember. (I'm sure you all needed to know that.) I feel motivated to do shit again, and not just things that are directly related to fandom. (And in conjunction with spring? Oh shit, bbs, I am on a fucking roll.)

I really can't even say how badly I feel about being an asshole last year, because I get it now. But I'm not sure I could have gotten it before now, because now is when I need it. I will try to make it up. (Did I mention that I'm drawing?)

Okay, I think I'm done with my love-ranting for right now. Apologies to the large percentage of my flist who are probably just blinking incredulously right now. <3

This is not to say that I am completely out of all other fandom at the moment! Because I am actually really loving this season of Doctor Who, and I kind of want Donna/Martha fic right now. Donna Noble is my hero!

every breath is at stake

So yes. Bandom is very, very inspiring.

Also, sweetvalleyslut and I traditionally give each other "birthday" and "Christmas" presents at entirely random times of the year. Well, I'm only three months late, give or take.

Bastet bb, this is for you! My very first foray. I am working on a color version as well, but I really could not stand to not share this anymore. It took a ridiculously long time, because I'm still working the kinks out. (Let me know if there are resolution problems? Just getting used to my new scanner.)

( Happy belated birthday thingie! )

In other fabulous news, the MCR tickets (for New York) came today. Oh my god, best weekend ever.