you don't feel you could love me

[reflectedeve]

Dear lord, I will never escape fandom.

It's just kind of funny, you know? Awhile ago I'd given up on trying to write fanfiction, because I realized that I was pouring a lot of my creative energy down a bottomless pit. I wanted to save it for my original work, and rightly so. So now I only write fic for yuletide and occasionally some other challenge.

Mostly, I lurk and read. The most fandom participation I've had in years was the Kim Possible fandom, and after several months of just not feeling into it I decided last night to let them know that I was pretty much done, at least for now. After all, I never found much fic that I liked in that fandom (in spite of my love for the pairing), and I feel pretty tapped out. No more attempts to please the masses with shiny new cartoon femslash fanart. I have original comics I'm writing, and I'm trying to find a more career-oriented job. Too damn much going on.

Recently, I've found myself all but fandom-free. SGA has lost most of its sparkle for me (I stopped trying to keep up with sweetvalleyslut's bookmarks ages ago, and I still haven't seen the season three finale). Veronica Mars and Life on Mars both ended, and I never read that much fic for either. Doctor Who I'm keeping up with (and man, the last three episodes have been awesome*--plus, next week!), but the fandom is really hard to navigate, particularly with my relatively limited tastes, so I'm not reading much fic. I'm always up for more DCU, but it's an occasional thing. X-Men? I'll always draw Rachel, but Marvel has pissed me off so badly recently that I've dropped almost all my titles, and there was never much fic there anyway. I almost went backsliding into Labyrinth, but I caught myself in time. (Trying to draw Jareth? That path leads only to frustration.)

So far so good, right? Free to concentrate on this "real world" stuff (at least, until the Harry Potter madness next month). But, no dice. I went and reread several volumes of From Eroica With Love, and now I'm already reading novel-length fic, joining communities and message boards, and flirting with the idea of drawing fanart. (So much more of a challenge than KP was! I do need to practice drawing men . . . I'm so bad at it. Besides, the temptation to try and figure out what Klaus and Dorian might look like in my relatively realistic style . . . heeee.)

I'm totally doomed. Ah well. :) Clearly the universe just needed to find a way to lose me any semblance of high ground, when mocking B about her bandslash obsession.

*sweetvalleyslut: I just watched the latest DW episode and it was really good, but kind of terrifying. Just so you know. ;)

Comments

[rhipowered.livejournal.com]

mmm, Paul Simon.

...you could draw Tenth Doctor pikturs.

icon love, rhi love

[reflectedeve.livejournal.com]

Yeah, B found out that I didn't actually own Graceland, and decided that simply could not be. :) She's awesome like that.

I could (don't think I haven't thought about it), but I think that might be nearly as frustrating as trying to draw Jareth. I am so bad at trying to capture real-world faces, it's one reason why I almost always draw for book, comic and cartoon fandoms.

Mind you, you never know.

Re: icon love, rhi love

[rhipowered.livejournal.com]

I lost my copy over summer of '04 and fortunately riverlight burned me one.

The thing about the Doctor is that David Tennant has something that's hard to capture, methinks. Or maybe it's the character. I just haven't seen a ton of good realistic or realist comic DW fanart for the new series.

Re: icon love, rhi love

[reflectedeve.livejournal.com]

Sadly, that's my weakness right there: capturing that "something" about people like Tennant, or Bowie . . . I can invent interesting people, but I can't copy them. So I'm probably not the one to ask. Man, I wish.

[sae.livejournal.com]

Wait wait wait.

So the fandom that stole you away from reality is a manga?

Can I document this? ;)

[reflectedeve.livejournal.com]

You? Hush. :p

It's the only manga I read, and I've been reading it (and only it) for what, two and a half years?

Besides, it's . . . really different. *mutters*